Okay, so today I decided to dive into this “inner self psychology” thing. I’ve been feeling kinda… off, lately. Like, not really myself, you know? So, I figured, why not explore what’s going on inside?
Starting the Journey
First, I grabbed a notebook and pen. I wanted to make this a real, tangible experience, not just some abstract thinking in my head. Plus, writing things down always helps me process stuff better.
Then, I found a quiet spot in my house. No distractions, no phone buzzing, just me and my thoughts. This was surprisingly hard! I’m so used to constant noise and input.
Digging Deep
I started by just free-writing. Whatever came to mind, I jotted it down. It was a mess at first. Random thoughts, feelings, memories, just spilling out onto the page. There are some stuff like:
- Anxious about upcoming deadline.
- Feeling overwhelmed.
- A little bit happy about small thing.
- Annoyed by some tiny thing.
After a while, I started to see some patterns. Certain words and phrases kept popping up. “Anxious,” “overwhelmed,” “pressure”… yeah, definitely a theme there. I circled those recurring words, like little clues to what’s really bothering me.
I also tried to remember specific situations that triggered these feelings. Like, that meeting last week? Total anxiety-fest. Writing about it helped me pinpoint why it made me so uneasy. It wasn’t the meeting itself, but the fear of not being prepared, of looking stupid.
The “Aha!” Moment
It is time to ask my self:
- When did the feeling start?
- Is this about my ability?
- What’s the biggest fear inside?
The big breakthrough came when I started asking myself “why” questions. Like, “Why am I so afraid of failing?” It sounds simple, but it opened up a whole can of worms. I realized a lot of my anxiety stems from this deep-seated need for approval, to be seen as competent and capable. Where did that come from? Probably childhood stuff, honestly. Still working on that one…
Moving Forward
I’m not gonna lie, this whole “inner self” thing is a work in progress. I didn’t magically solve all my problems in one afternoon. But I did gain some valuable insights. I identified some key triggers and underlying beliefs that are messing with my head.
My next step? Probably keep journaling. And maybe, just maybe, consider talking to a professional. This stuff is deep, and sometimes you need an outside perspective to help you sort it all out. But for now, I’m feeling a little more… aware. And that’s a good start.
